I am Interested in Building a way to live
I think I speak about it often, and maybe I need to keep speaking about it to keep it real. Not speaking about it, feels like it's has a chance of slipping away, muddled in all the noise of the world.
What am I doing...
I'm here on Bear to be a better person for me. A space for me, and those like me, make some friends, connect, but in a way that isn't horrible like the rest of the internet. (Wow Facebook sucks!)
A nice quote I've been thinking about: "I am interested in living. I am interested in building a way to live...".
I'd say, on my worst days, I'm desperate for "connection" with real people, but it's rather a desire to be understood.
My partner, who we'll call "Demon", is this for me. She "gets me". More than I ever imagined on my worst days, better than any family member on my good days. She's been a indescribable atmosphere of consideration, calm and space all at once for me.
I suppose then that am I here to be understood? Here being the internet, but Bear too. Maybe, but what makes me special then? Nothing, but also, everything. Like all those that exist, I exist, and the nature of existence is to want connection. We are animals, but also, much more. (There's a whole thing here about trauma but that's not for today)
I'm here, because I want to be understood, but also, want to understand others.
I'm interested in building a way to live.